R.I.P. Away from the Drama!

Obviously it has been a while since I've blogged. But as usual, alot has happened.



I feel that the most important thing that happened has me left with alot of mixed feelings.


My grandmother (my mom's mom) passed away on Wednesday August 25th 2010. She was in the hospital for 5 years, went in with a stroke, had a seizure, and another stroke. I used to visit all the time when I first got my car, but after my mom passed away (Oct 26th 2006) the visits got less and less because even though my grandmother could not talk, she would ask (by mouthing) for my mom. It became too hard to handle. She was in the hospital when my mom passed away, and did not know, and in her condition we were not able to tell her.


Well the mixed feeling come because of my VERY disfunctional family. A relative came dressed like a dirty slut, with a short tight skirt, see through blouse, teased hair, and long, very long RED nails. The attire was entirely inappropriate and family members who only used her while she was alive to cook difficult Guyanese dishes acted as if they loved her SO much, Business owners used her funeral to invite co-workers to mingle. During the "wake" not everyone visited the house where my grandmother resided. People who acted so disgustingly at the funeral kept "wake" at another house.


I think that my family ended with the death of my mother (since aunts do not keep in contact with children, the excuse is that we are kids we should know to contact them.) but now with my grandmother gone, I am figuring out who my family and friends really are.


Since I wrote this MORE has happened. At this point I am totally and utterly ashamed of the people I used to call family.


I want to use this opportunity to make myself perfectly clear. I know certain people are snakes in the grass. They LIE and they will suffer in the end. The only reason I seem to be the bad one is because I will NOT censor what I have to say, and I will not sit by idol while some guilty bitch uses MY NAME to cover her own lies.


My life has been a hard one, I have done alot of bad things that I regret, but I NEVER LIE about it. I know and I have seen the drama since I was a kid, I find that even though I am walking away from it all, they will ALWAYS call my name and wonder. The truth will come out one day and then they will all be sorry.